Lord- do you have a hearing ear before me to take notice of my supplications before your Throne? You are God, Jehovah and you need not me. But I was created for your purpose. Was my life necessary? Was it needed? I can't remember anything before I was born. Would not it have been better not to have life as an entity on Earth rather than living in this place? Nothingness might have been better for me rather than having life with a conscience that would punish me here and now and then again in eternity. Were we created only to be destroyed at the end of our lives? And is this reality, this planet Earth with creation upon it? Lord Jesus, many things trouble me. Let me sort it out and bring it before you that you may help me understand your Father, Jehovah, in heaven. Amen, Lord.